June 27th 2020
You didn't leave anything undone
You did more than you ever should have
You did everything I ever asked for and wished for
And for some strange reason
I had to pull away
To be on my own
To figure out who I am on my own
And it turns out
I'm no different
I'm still me. Still happy some days and
Sad and grieving another
On my own
Without your input
I needed that time alone and I still do.
I'm sorry you never understood.
I'm sorry I didn't take fair time to explain.
I'm sorry I got mad at you for getting mad at me.
You didn't know any better. I didn't know any better.
I had to to find my inner knowledge of me being in charge of my life
For all of my joys and miseries
Because at times it got too tangled up with yours and I wasn't sure of the life I was living in. I wasn't sure who's was it. I didn't know what to do with it
When it's from God, it comes with a confirmation
And so it did and so we let it
But when it was time to leave
It came with a confirmation too. We were just too stubborn to admit it
So I'll extend my prayer of gratitude to you tonight as well
Even though I didn't do right things and say right words at the right time
Even though we could've done so much better
Even though I should have been so much better person for you and myself
I'm grateful for the fact you were in my life and now continue on your own path
Because I'm forever grateful
(Things I think but rarely say out loud)